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[youarethepan]

sO IT HAS, uHH, cOME TO MY ATTENTION THAT i MAY NOT BE IN THE VEIL ANYMORE,
aCTUALLY IT IS, vERY OBVIOUS THAT THIS IS THE CASE,
bECAUSE i'M PRETTY SURE THE VEIL WAS NOT, uNDERWATER,
wITH, uNDERSEA FLORA FORMATIONS EVERYWHERE,
QUITE POSITIVE, aCTUALLY,
aND, iF THAT IS THE CASE,
i NEED TO ASK WHERE EVERYONE IS,
aND BY THAT, i MEAN EVERYONE THAT i KNOW,
bECAUSE THERE ARE CLEARLY PLENTY OF YOU HERE THAT i DON'T,
aND THAT, iS A LITTLE AWKWARD,
bUT AT LEAST i HAVE THIS, cOMMUNICATIVE DEVICE,
sO i'M HOPING THERE'S SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO CAN SEE THIS,
uM,
i'M, uHH, tAVROS nITRAM,

[The troll himself is wandering around the main plaza, poking his fingers through a decent sized hole right in the middle of the Taurus symbol on his chest. He'd have to get himself a new shirt...]

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[dependabull.livejournal.com]

[Tavros shakes his head, a little depressed by the question.]

N-no. I can't, get my remember on for this place at all. And, I'm really sorry for that, because everyone seems to think that I should. Maybe if I, uh, knocked my head against something real hard, the memories would come back?

[He's not really sure if this makes any sense at all and he's not really looking forward to doing anything of the sort, but it's all he can think of.]

[420]

Shit. You think that would all fuckin' work here?

[that would be pretty magical, aww yeah.]

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

Um... I don't know.

Now that I think about it, I'm not really sure I want to, uh, risk doing something like that. I think it would, probably hurt a lot.

[420]

[Right okay. Not bashing Tavros on the head with a rock then. Or having him charge at the wall. That's probably for the best anyway. He wouldn't want his buddy to be hurt.]

How about this motherfucker all tries to up and fuckin' broadside schoolfeed you on the shit that up and went down here.

[He pauses, turning a little quieter.]

Uh. It ain't all being wicked awesome though.

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

Yes! That would be a good idea, I think, to have me be schoolfed. By you, I mean. I am, very much hungry for this knowledge that is, to be spooned in my direction. If, you were to use a spoon and not, a more pronged instrument.

[His expression becomes slightly more concerned at the last comment, because Gamzee is rarely not cheerful.]

I guess, not every place can be perfect.

[420]

[he has been learning a bit more about experience other emotions beyond RAMPANT DRUG ABUSE.]

Yeah. But like, it weren't all being the fuckin' hood that did this shit. It were me.

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

...I'm not, quite sure what you're getting at.

Are you, saying you maybe did something accidentally?

[Because he could see that, honestly.]

1/2

[420]

Yes.

[Oh man, Gamzee had accidentally done a whole lot of things. Like that time he and Equius accidentally fell into the water trying to catch a fish. And that time he accidentally ate Karkat's cotton candy. Or that time he had accidentally scared the crap outta Wataru and made him curse on video. Or.

Point was, Gamzee did a lot of things accidentally.]

[420]

But uh. This weren't all like something a brother does by not fuckin' meaning it. It is way too fuckin' big for that.

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

Oh. Really?

Um, well if you want to talk about it, we can. I can always, lend an ear to a bro. Which, you most definitely are.

[Though he hadn't expected to get into a serious discussion before they even went anywhere, and definitely not with Gamzee of all people.]

[420]

Thanks, bro. I would all be appreciating that real fuckin' bad. I'm thinkin' this is all the kinda shit a bro does tell his best motherfuckin' bullhonky.

[Hmm, is it weird to have an important conversation like this just in the middle of the plaza? Probably! but Gamzee is not one for social mores.

Smores though. He is one for smores.]

I... messed up.

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

[Aw. Messing up is never good.]

How... How did you mess up?

[420]

[Hesitant.]

I--

Shit, I ain't all tellin' you this to be scaring a brother out. That ain't what I motherfuckin' wish to do. I just... what happened isn't up and no secret here. I think a brother all owes it to front about his fuck ups rather then let his motherfuckin' pal find out elsewise.

[this is hard. Somehow telling Equius had been easier? Perhaps because he had never struck directly at him? Just at what Equius held most dear. But with Tavros...]

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

[The way Gamzee is hesitating is making Tavros uneasy. This is completely unlike his friend.]

Um. Gamzee? What happened?

[420]

I all ran outta slime. Hurt peeps.

[A stretch of silence then quieter.]

Culled 'em too.


[He's not looking at Tavros anymore, instead just staring down at the ground, his shoulders heavy with guilt he can't shake. Probably won't ever be able to shake.]

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

You... I don't, really get it.

You ran out of your slime, and... that made you want to kill people?

[This doesn't compute at all. He knew Gamzee liked his pies, but this? This seemed almost ridiculous.

Maybe Gamzee's joking? Surely he'll lift his head in a moment and tell his friend he was just pulling one over on him. That wouldn't be a bad joke, he supposed. Better than it being true.

He isn't sure how to take this.]

[420]

[Sorry, Tav. You know Gamzee's jokes are a hella lot worse than this.]

I can't all up and motherfuckin' explain it. Like. Like there are other mes, you know? But those motherfuckers only be interested in wicked bad shit. But like, when I take the slime? I can't hear 'em. Like it puts the motherfuckers down to rest, you get? I know, it up and don't even make motherfuckin' sense, but it is true.

[He is just kinda... stumbling over his words. He really needs you to believe this, Tav.]

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

That... still doesn't make a lot of sense to me, but. I guess if you say it's the case then I'll take your word for it.

...So what about now? Do you still want to, kill people now?

[He doesn't even want to ask who died.]

[420]

No. S'long as I can eat the slime, I'm cool.

[He pauses. Should he tell about the mood swings. It is not strictly necessary but-- no! Tavros is his bro. you don't keep secrets between bros. That ain't done.]

Get real fuckin' pissed sometimes, but I never hurt no brother! I got peeps helping me, you get? Up and got a moirai. He ain't all here now though. And Karkat all be helping me keep to my slime. Equius helps too.

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

That's good! I wouldn't want to think that, uh, you were having to deal with this all alone. I mean, as your friend, I could probably assist you. Especially now that I have these legs and, my newfound self-esteem.

[He smiles a little, trying to look reassuring.]

If you don't, um, want to do those things then that's promising! Maybe... it's an indigo blood puberty thing? Because, trolls can get a little more... violent, when they start to get older. Right?

[420]

[He smiles a little.]

Yeah, you all on that fuckin' self-esteem shit like a clown on a good motherfuckin' horn.

[And then it is back to that other topic at hand.]

And I dunno. Maybe. I don't up and understand this shit. I just... ain't want it happening again, you get? Cause... Cause you were all one of the motherfucker being that got griefed at too, and I up and never want to motherfuckin' hurt you again. I'm real fuckin' sorry.

[There he said it. The worse confession was out.]

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

[Oh. Oooh.]

Oh.

So that's... why you really wanted to tell me. Uhh. I won't lie, and say that doesn't bother me, but, maybe it's a good thing that I went and forgot all that. It wouldn't, be fair to be upset with you if I don't remember.

I forgive you for, uh, whatever you did. Okay? So now you don't have to worry about it.

[420]

[finally Gamzee raises his head a little, eyeing Tavros through his bangs.]

Honest? I know you can't up and get your remember on or nothing but... I ain't askin' you to motherfuckin' trust me or shit here. Just all... thought you should be in the know, you dig? Wouldn't want you thinkin' I were up and hiding this fuckin' crap from ya.

[dependabull.livejournal.com]

Well, you seem to really want to, make up for whatever you did. And, I would feel kinda bad if I didn't, give you the benefit of the doubt. Because you're my friend a-and all.

I'm sorry that, things of an unpleasant nature have happened.

[420]

[He just stares for a moment. So... he is getting a second shot at this? Even though Tavros knows he fucked up bad, he's still going to give him the benefit of the doubt and be friends still?




oh.

sorry, Tav, you're going to be barreled into a very enthusiastic bear hug. No need to pay heed to the way Gamzee accidentally smashes his face into your horns there. No. Sush. Only hugs now.]

Thanks, bro. Can't all up and tell you how much that fuckin' be meaning to this motherfucker.